Monday, June 30, 2014

Voodoo Child

Okay, so the Disclaimer should come first... our Family don't actually practice Voodoo and these aren't REALLY Voodoo Dolls. My Grandson isn't actually a Voodoo Child and the Post isn't about a Jimi Hendrix Song either. *LOL*   So no Messages of Alarm please!  *Winks* 

 It's just what he's calling them because they're similar to a line of Adorable mini Quirky Yarn Dolls he and his Sister got out of some Vending Machines on the Cali Trip {a couple are pictured above}... and fell in Love with... and that's what the Line was called.  So he wanted to make his own Version of the Dolls out of Clay rather than Yarn since he can't find any here in Arizona Vending Machines to complete their Collection.   *Smiles*   And, he's quite the budding Entrepreneur so since his Friends liked his Voodoo Doll Collection, he started making them some of his own to Sell!  *Winks*   The top Lead Post Image one he made for me at no charge since somebody had to be his Investor and Bankroll the Clay and Buttons, right?!  *LOL*

His little Sister also donated all of the Clay I bought her in Exchange for him making her some... she's nobody's Fool, right, she's gonna make a Gypsy Trade early and get some of his Collection built up before he's a Discovered Artist and his prices and the demand go up!!!   *Winks*  Along with the little Voodoo Dolls he's also making the Voodoo Pet Line to go with them, Clever Boy!!!   This is Voodoo Kitty.

And Voodoo Doggy.   I'm sure he'll come up with a virtual Voodoo Animal Zoo eventually, and all their paraphernalia... the Possibilities are clearly endless!!!  *LOL*

He's working on the Stylization of the Line... some have one button eye... some have two... I think they're Adorable and very Creative so I'm Encouraging him in his Creative Endeavor of making up his Line and deciding upon a Price Point so he can earn some pocket money with his proceeds.  Wish I'd Photographed all of the others he's already Created for Friends, they're too Cute!   He's always had a preference for Sculpting and that seems to be his Special Gift.  He can Sculpt out of Clay, Sand, Tin Foil or Paper so fast that I never cease to be gobsmacked at how effortless he makes it seem!   He's been doing Amazing and Complex Origami for years.

He's eager to Market them and have Free Advertisement... so he's been blowing up our phones to tell Family and Friends about his little Venture... *Ha ha ha!!!*  Color me Proud...
Blessings from the Arizona Desert... Dawn... The Bohemian

Sunday, June 29, 2014

Happy 28th Birthday My Son!!!

Yes, 28 Years Ago this Morning my Youngest came into this World... Happy 28th Birthday My Son!!!

He tipped the scales at Ten and a half pounds at Birth so he was never your Average Baby... this is his one day old Homecoming and our Youngest Daughter is having a difficult time holding him... he would very soon outweigh her even though she's five years his Senior!   *LOL*

 His Birth Picture resembled a Samoan Wrestler Baby!  And he WAS scrappy!  *Smiles*   And what a handful he was as a Child... your proverbial High Maintenance Kiddo in every sense of the Word!  

 With all that abundant energy he made an Outstanding Athlete... and with all the Mischief no Teacher ever forgot him, even to this day!  Yes, he made lasting impressions!!!  *LOL*   We knew all his Principals on a First Name basis, though he was always a very Intelligent Student with High Grades and Graduating with Honors.   And I've always said he's never met a Stranger... he can make a Friend faster than anybody I've ever known.

And he has grown into a Fine Young Man... and found himself a Fine Young Woman... and we couldn't be Prouder!  Love you Son!!!   Happy Birthday from your Mom!!!
Blessings from the Arizona Desert... Dawn... The Bohemian

Saturday, June 28, 2014

Things I Miss...

A Simple Post of just some of the things I Miss as I peruse the Photo Archives of the Past... some are Superficial... some much more Personal and Deep... but I Miss them all nonetheless...
Having the Resources for regular Mani's and Pedi's... and Glorious Massages!!!  Pampering Self just Feels so Good and so decadent... I used to be able to grow out my natural nails by having a layer of acrylic professionally put over the top of them to strengthen them.  

Those Treasures that I'm pretty sure I still have... but can't find for the life of me!!!  *Smiles*

Being at a Goal Weight... it seems like a Lifetime ago rather than less than four mere years ago!!!   Yes, this was only 2010 and I barely recognize myself now since I'm a shadow of my former Self... well, more like two shadows wide of my former Self!  *Le Sigh*
Spending Time with my Mom... and her having the Freedom and Ability to Live Independantly.  Yes, this is when she was Footloose Fancy Free and Independant... and I was somewhat Footloose and Fancy Free and not fat!  *Bigger Le Sigh!*  And Time spent with Dad... who Crossed Over long before the Digital Age where I had Archives of Images I could download online of our Special Times Together, of which there were many... I was mos def a Daddy's Girl!  *Smiles*

The Great and Small Adventures... the spontaneous Road Trips that The Man and I used to be able to embark upon before his catastrophic accident.  When we had several close Friends and Extended Family here Locally, willing and able to give us brief Respites by taking the G-Kid Force for a few days at a time.  So we could just get away and be unencumbered Seniors Enjoying each other and doing what we Imagined our Golden Years would Look and Feel like! 

Or even those Great and Small Adventures with the G-Kids in tow, when The Man was able to do them with us.

Being able to get more of the Girls together and to have more Girl's Days Out just being Crazy and having Fun!
When our Town was Small and Intimate enough that we still had a sense of it's History and the Billy Moore Days Activities and Parade.  Now that it's grown exponentially with so many Newcomers that don't Care about it's Small Beginnings and seem to want to erase everything that 'Was' in favor of everything 'New'... that has all been discontinued, lost and virtually forgotten... such a Shame.  Every place's History should be Celebrated along with it's Progress into the Future.

Family Get-Togethers at our House, which can't happen as often anymore... too many of the Family are missing or at a distance now for it to be the same or possible anyway.  And don't laugh, this was my brief Shabby Chic Phase when I tried more of a Colorless slash pop of Pastels Palette!  *LOL and Gagging a bit!*  Yeah, it clearly wasn't for me or my Aesthetic, what was I thinking?!?!??  *LMAO*   Some Cherished Treasures remain... but Color and Addams Family Values HAD to come back... even if it was heavy doses of Sage and Sepia in some rooms that I wanted a bit of Organic to remain in!  *Winks*

And of coarse the montage of Beloved Fur Babies that have Graced our Home over the Years... some for Decades or more...

Others who left us much too soon and had brief but Memorable Lives...

And still others who dropped by for what was for them a Visit and never intended to Adopt us permanently, since the Nomadic Life Called to them too strongly I suppose.   This one we nicknamed Bear because of his freaky deformed ears... what a Character he was, quite Tame but very Aloof about sticking around Bohemian Valhalla.  I often Wonder where the Road took him next as he was gone like a Ghost Cat almost as quickly and mysteriously as he had arrived?

And then there are The One's that I Miss the most... which is probably not Fair to have Favorites... but I was Rat Boy's Favorite Human for over Twenty Years and I Miss her every day... as much as any Human I have had to say Good-Bye to as they Crossed Over... and yes, Rat Boy was a Girl... but that's another Story... *Smiles*   And there are many more... we've always had a slew of Fur Babies in our Home!

And I really, really Miss our two Daughters and their Families... long distance contact just isn't the same is it?  And watching each other grow Older from a Distance isn't as gradual... so those you see less often almost seem suspended in Time in your Mind's Eye and it's difficult to wrap your Mind around how much Time has actually passed since the last touch, hug, kiss, and face-to-face chinwag or spending Real Time Together!  
 And of coarse those many Family Members who have Crossed Over and we'll have to wait until it's our turn to meet again on the Other Side.   This is one of my Beloved Departed Paternal Aunts, who moved from the Rez in Oklahoma to come live in Arizona near us... in a photo with our Youngest Daughter, The Son and one of the now Grown older Grand-Daughters when she was Visiting from back East with the Oldest Daughter... who was probably taking this Image.   And yes, this was when The Man was going thru his Southwestern Phase and wanted the Decor to look like his version of Native American Style!   An Indian Blanket Print and Lodgepole Sofa for example!!!  *Bwahahahahaha and me Gagging !!!*  Dad's Family thought it hilarious too!

And I naturally Miss all of my Friends who now live scattered everywhere else across the Country and the Globe.   Some Friends that I've shared a Special Bond with since Childhood... which is a very, very long time indeed!  *Smiles*

And others who I've known most of my Adult Life... which again is a very, very long time indeed!  *Winks*   And the Missing of your BFF's can be a particular Void since they are  your Confidants, your Crew that you Rolled with and did Life with just as closely as Family!   They BECAME Family in fact and we became Sisters... of different Mothers and Fathers... maybe not Biologically Connected but certainly Connected every other type of way Relationally so it didn't matter that we didn't share bloodlines!  *Smiles*

But in this Miraculous Age of Cyberspace we can often transcend Time gone by and connect to and see Old Friends and their Families... and extended Family... often now all Grown Up... that we haven't been able to Enjoy the Company of for perhaps what seems like a Lifetime... and what a Joy that is!  Time moved so quickly you know... and before you know it, in the blink of an eye... it has marched on... and things Change... and it's Okay to Miss some of it.  I Hope this Simple Post of things I Miss has helped you to Recall those things YOU Miss... whether Nostalgically or even with tinges of remorse over what is now different as Time has gone by...
Blessings from the Arizona Desert... Dawn... The Bohemian

Friday, June 27, 2014

Escapism Master

I am a bonafide Jedi Master when it comes to Escapism.  Escapism to me is a vital form of Self Preservation and Surviving Life's turbulent Storms.  When Life in general is rough, which it often can be or is, depending on who you are and the hand you're dealt, you better find the most effective way to play your hand well and still Live with Passion.  This will lead to the Perception of having a Good Life regardless of Circumstances and Situations, especially those beyond your Control... and Perception, after all, IS EVERYTHING!

I easily Escape via other things I'm Passionate about and which Feed my Creative Soul or my Fertile Imagination and have always been Welcome Escape Routes I chose to Retreat to for Respites.   Sometimes Real Life sucks, it's just the way it is and plays out... you don't always have Control over the hand dealt and you're expected to play.  Or how long you're expected to play a certain part of it or role in it that you're not particularly enthused about or would be a willing volunteer for.  If you had that option of saying, "Pick me!" instead of being picked involuntarily.

I think that's why it's rather Ironic and Funny that one of my all time Favorite forms of Escapism and something I'm absolutely Passionate about has been "Picking", even before I knew what it was called.  Of seeking out those things and attaining them that I Treasure and find Beauty in and can find Purpose for or Rescue.  There's so many other things in this Experience called Life that I haven't 'picked' for a variety of different reasons or Seasons and it's difficult to find the Beauty in or the Purpose for or I simply couldn't Save.   Whatever it turned out to be I always at least attempted to play my part with Excellence and a right Spirit and Attitude about it, or you could risk going thru Life absolutely Miserable.  But it's never quite like your Passions, and spending Time immersed in them, is it?  That is Pure Bliss!!!

 Passions abide, they're those things that ignite your Soul and usually can't be completely snuffed out or stifled indefinitely.  I have always felt that many of us that don't have the opportunity... or boldness... or resources... or whatever... to pursue Passions or spend quite enough Time savoring them, will still find some kinda way to Escape to them every once in a while... we almost HAVE to... because they're such an intricate part of our very Being!  And we WANT to be with or doing what we're most Passionate about... everyone Enjoys Exposure to what they find to be Blissful!!!

Whether or not a Passion is a form of Escape or a way of Life is the major factor though.   My observation has been that those fortunate enough to make a Passion a way of Life mostly and generally don't need it as an Escape Route.  Because it has actually become the Path of which they Travel through Life daily upon and it is not a Dream unfulfilled.   When you're Living your Dreams then your Reality is pretty Good as it is and you're not likely to want to Escape it very often, if at all. Do you know anyone really who would WANT to Escape a Blissful Existance?!?

I have always Believed that the Laws of Attraction will work in our favor, eventually, even if not immediately.   So, many, many times when folks would casually ask me in Greeting how I'm doing I'd chose to respond, "Living the Dream...", whether or not I actually WAS in Real Life.  I thought perhaps if I responded that way often enough it would actually become my Truth.   I could have been wrong in that Belief, but I LIKE to still Imagine it to be True.  I have never given up yet on actually "Living the Dream" and not just Dreaming about it constantly or being derailed and detoured from pursuing it by Life's Issues or the hand I've been dealt.

And until such time as it is a possibility, I suppose I will still continue to hone my skills at being a bonafide Jedi Master of Escapism to Retreat those places and activities I've had burning Passion for as often as I possibly can.  So that I can Visit and spend Time, sometimes even Real Time and not Imaginary Time, even if it is very limited Time, in that Realm of where my Passions are and what they are.  And Believe that they are within reach as being a way of Life if I just keep extending my hand towards them and being secure in the knowledge they were always meant to be tied to my Destiny.

Blessings from the Arizona Desert... Dawn... The Bohemian

Wednesday, June 25, 2014

My Rabbit Hole Is A Hot Mess!

Deferred Maintenance... I suppose that's the best way to describe it.  My Rabbit Hole is a Hot Mess and it seemed that during the Great Edit and Purge I'd get more of a handle on it.  At least that was the Master Plan and Delusion behind major Purging of contents so I'd have more of a semblance of Curated Clutter and Clean areas recently spruced up and Glorious!?

But along with getting deep into a Project of downsizing possessions comes the stark realization that everything also needs a good scrub, a good dust, a good slap of paint, re-organization... etc. etc. etc... the list as you get further along in a Grandoise Project just seems to Snowball doesn't it?  Yes, that's a thick layer of dust on a neglected windowsill that I don't really have to look at until forced to! Today for some Insane reason I forced myself to and that became the catalyst of this Post!   Ah, the Shame of it all!!! *LOL*

And suddenly it becomes an Avalanche of Projects dovetailed onto the original one... and once a feeling of being overwhelmed and overtaken by it all... by the sheer magnitude of what looms in front of me pervades... well, I tend to come to a screeching halt to re-assess the situation before I dig myself in too deeply!!!  And distract myself with other things... like Blogging... you know how the Escape Plan goes when you don't wanna face something too daunting!?  *Winks*

After all... it's better than it WAS... so I still Feel some level of Enthusiasm to continue at my own pace, which seems to be slower than Molasses running uphill in February!  But there is that nagging thought at the back of my Mind that pervades as well... that by the time I get close to finishing several areas, it will be time to begin again at the first area before I even get to the last area because Maintenance is perpetual isn't it?

And the lazy part of me, who is the antithesis of a domestic goddess, whispers in my ear, what's the point really?  Okay, so you'll have perhaps a more Organized Curated place that ends up with Deferred Maintenance... but you KNOW your Maintenance is undoubtedly gonna be Deferred because this isn't all that you have time on your hands to do!   Point taken into consideration.

It is the Truth... even the Studio Great Room Makeover I'm so Proud of really could use a good dusting again... and that's the closest area of Accomplishment and The Victory I have at this juncture!   And I know that Maintenance has never been one of my particular strengths.

Sure, I can Style a Space to Perfection, get a lot of Work done against incredible odds and ridiculous deadlines, lose weight, juggle an Insane Schedule, wear many hats and multi-task like I've been given Super Powers... but MAINTAINING any of it once I've Accomplished it... not so much or so easy for me. 

Perhaps its the ADHD... I can be intensely focused on something for only so long before I just can't stick with it any longer because I'll get antsy and distracted by something else... which then leads to something else... and then something else... and often the inability to want to go back and revisit something again after I've already done it once before not so long ago!!!  Repetitiveness is not something I thrive on.

If you gave me a hundred different things to do I could roll with that much more easily than giving me the same thing to do a hundred times!   Thus, housekeeping to me is a torturous exercise in futility... sure it needs to get done... often... too often... and seems to be endless so that sense of Accomplishment doesn't last long around here.

In fact if I get a room to a point of feeling great about it and leave that room... chances are pretty good when I return to said room it will look like I'd never even been there before!   With the exception of those rooms that aren't used so much... but those will also be the ones the most Neglected because I'm running too much damage control in the other rooms continuously.

And before I blame it all on the Family, I can be my own worst Enemy when it comes to keeping a Rabbit Hole a place of Enchantment and not of Chaotic Disorganization as well.  Yes, it's also True that more than quite a bit of this Hot Mess is MINE... all MINE and of my own doing!   *Gasp!*   And since I Love my Home and the amassed Beautiful Treasures it holds, Ideally I'd like it to be much more Presentable, Clean, Inviting and Orderly most of the time.  Especially MY Stuff... since that is MY Responsibility to keep that in Order and Maintained!

I am not comfortable in a Hot Mess, I'm not one of those that doesn't notice it or am not bothered by it... but the Pain of that apparently hasn't been sufficient enough to promote enough Change yet, because it still Exists to some degree.   And I'm not sure why it is so hard for me, when for others it seems so effortless?   It's not because I can't Work circles around most people, so I have the Ability to do it and be most Effective... but in Application I still struggle.

I think I'm one of those people that needs to be able to do a Job or a Project and have it stay done for a sufficient amount of time that I don't feel as though I've completely wasted my time I guess?  I need to be able to bask for a while... I just NEED that.   To be able to sit there and see my Results and BASK... to have that spur me on and gain momentum and even more Enthusiasm.

And in my Studio Space that has been much easier than in the Main House... I have Attempted to Apply the same Principals I used to Accomplish the huge feat of the Victory I had in there.  But... it was a much smaller Space and I had more Liberties... AND nobody actually LIVES in there... so it has pretty much stayed in a condition I could Bask... and can continue to Bask and have it stay Presentable and Orderly.  And to dust it and Maintain it is completely do-able in less than a complete Lifetime! 
But in the Main House though there are areas like the Guest Room that are up to speed and I can have Peace about the Condition of since it stays Abandoned most of the time and is Suspended in Time therefore... there are other areas that are Intimidating and downright Scary as a Project site!

Sure, I could get some killer Close-Ups that could pass Inspection... but if I did a Panoramic View, Holy Mother of God and a Huge Gasp!!!   And there's always those other things that I don't even notice... until I Photograph something and think, "What the Hell??????" upon closer Inspection.   Like why is there a Photo Mount Sticker stuck on my Vintage Linens and God knows what else?  Humnnnnnnn... no telling what Idle Little Hands have been up to in Secrecy around this Old House?!?   And sometimes I don't think I even wanna know?!?  *Winks*

Now to be sure those same Idle Little Hands can be Gramma's best Helper since she Loves to Clean and Organize... which Clearly she didn't Inherit from Yours Truly!   *LOL*   There are times when she takes the Initiative and just sets about a Cleaning and Organizing Project frenzy long overdue and she's quite Content in the doing of it since for her it's Pleasurable and she's Wired for it... so unlike her Gramma!  *Smiles*

And I'm Glad for her that she is that way because perhaps she'll have a Neat, Orderly, Spotless Home one day that she keeps on top of and isn't suffering this same Affliction from?  Because I've come to consider that it could be an Affliction of some sort since Controlling it isn't as easy as just Wanting to?!?

The Desire of my Heart after all is Neat, Orderly, Clean and Photogenic!  *Smiles*   A place for everything and everything in it's place...  and yet... there isn't always a place for everything and thus it's displaced for a time... sometimes too long a time... and yet it's a 'Keeper'... so what to do, what to do?

I mean the Vintage Alligator Purse shouldn't be taking an extended Nap on the Diningroom Chair... but he is.   Because we don't Dine there and I rarely Craft or Create there anymore now that I've got the Studio up and running... so it's not as if he can't hang out there and languish for as long as he likes... well, until I start to get bothered that he's there instead of somewhere an Alligator Purse probably SHOULD BE!?!  He's not gonna be Sold, but he should probably be Displayed better or maybe even Used!!!  How about that Dawn... actually Purpose him once in a while!?!   Oh, you probably would if you could always remember where he even IS and didn't have to hunt him down or forget you even had him, am I right?  Yes, I have those Crazy Lady conversations in my head with myself sometimes, I really do!  *Winks* 
And perhaps some of you are equally Afflicted and can relate to this Post?  Or perhaps some of you have Conquered the Beast that is Chronic Disorganization and Deferred Maintenance?  Or maybe you don't even know what I'm talkin' about and just plain Curiosity brought you here to the bottom of the Post because you're Marveling at how anyone can Function or Live this way?  *LOL*
And there are times when I delude myself into Believing that so long as the place is Clean enough to be Healthy and Dirty enough to be Happy it doesn't really matter in the grand scheme of things... except that it does matter... or I wouldn't even be bothering to Write about it from a place of such strong Emotion!   Like... is that Persian Rug and those Kilims REALLY Clean enuf for that Child to be Napping on the floor and beside the dirty flip flops I was just Gardening in?!  Well, she's up to date on her shots so she's probably going to be Okay... See... see what I mean when the OCD kicks in too?  *LOL*  

Just call me your Deeply Disturbed Blog Friend coming to you from a Hot Mess of a Rabbit Hole you've fallen down in the Arizona Desert... *Winks*

Dawn... The Bohemian

A life touched by God always ends in touching others. - Erwin McManus

I will love the light for it shows me the way, yet I will endure the darkness for it shows me the stars. - Og Mandino (1923-1996)

For creativity to flourish one should try to look at everything as though it were being seen for the first or the last time. - Quote from "A Thousand Paths To Creativity" by David Baird

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